I’m re-reading Datre book five - Conversations with Datre and there is interesting comment about self-consciousness and self-awareness.

Self consciousness is really Self awareness. Its sort
of like the words “idea” and “thinks”. If you were to go
into or inside of the word “Self awareness” you would
discover it is a different expression of consciousness
itself, only individualized or personalized.

Just as we have said with the word “idea” if you were
to go inside that word you would find the “Thought”
from which the idea came. Or even the word “thinks”
which are the result of Thought “fragments” instead
of whole thoughts.

Subconscious is a level of awareness that is not fully
focused.

The book gives this exercise :

First say the words “Self conscious” to your self and
see what you get as a feeling of the body.
Then say the words “Self aware” and see what you
get for a feeling of the body. They should result in
two different types of feeling about the body.

Interesting study

Excerpt:

“A recent experiment tested college students’ ability to focus their attention and filter out distractions. Half the students received training in mindfulness meditation while the other half received relaxation training.

After five days, meditators outpaced nonmeditators on the attention test, and they became significantly better at handling stress. Saliva samples revealed lower levels of the hormone cortisol when the meditators were subjected to an anxiety-inducing math quiz. ”

Full story:
http://www.oregonlive.com/health/index.ssf/2008/06/scientists_study_links_between.html

I have done meditations for so many years, I don’t know, how I will score in anything like this, they talk about attention, I consider that I have good level of attention and concentration however it is definitevely not enough to go dive in the deepest layers of the Focus levels from the Gateway Experience CDs course.
The summer has never been a good season for me for deep trance work but I really would like to return to something like deep meditation. I will in september, today, we have 32 degrees Celsius this is too hot for me.

I don’t know if there is a connection but I had a spontaneous OOBE half a hour after my Meditation Mastery. I have heard of others Meditation Mastery users developing OOBE skill as a result of the work with that product.
The exit out of the body was particularly interesting, it was exactly when we fall alsleep but here only my body went to sleep my mind remained awake, when the physical body was completely asleep, I could feel my energy becoming smaller or contracting itself to the point I could feel an impression of separation between the body and the energy.

I was out I was floating I was seeing roofs of building those weren’t Spanish architectural style; the use of red bricks is typical of the North of France and Central Europe more generally, my guess is that I was somewhere in my hometown Brussels (Belgium), today, I go to Barcelona to spend the week end so I focused on being there I found strange that instead I was in someplace else, may be, I have to learn to navigate in that new environment I guess .
I also intended to contact some kind of guide or someone from that environment something showed up however it is impossible to describe , it was like something in my visual field fluctuate and expressed something, I also heard voice actually it was my own voice like in talking out loud, I was saying complete banality such as “the coffee is warm”

I will see if I have more OOBE in the coming days.

A counter-intention is when you are doing something and then a part of yourself want something else. It is a real problem for people working on their personal growth. It can be manifested on the form of tiredness (You are tired you cannot do what you have to do), the strong urge to do something else (go for a walk, repairing, painting , ..) food craving.

The most vicious form is when you are seduced by a completely new project and you give up the work you are doing in the hope that the next thing will be better. This guarantee that you will never achieve your initial project.
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I had a vivid rather annoying dream last night it was about my self-image. The dream was long and started in an airport (A place I’m very often in real life ….in a couple of days –the 16th May - I flight to Scotland) and the last segment in a school, I remember the part in a school.

I was in a bench with my classmates and they are all happy to be with me, they are two new girls in the class twin sisters , apparently Slavic (they are a lot of Slavic people in my town but I don’t talk or interact with them)
They were apparently interested into me however I was unaware of that and a guy tried to explain that to me however I had a hard time to understand why they are so happy to be with me and why these girls were interested to me.
I had a dull look on my face and the guy was so happy for me and he had a big smile then one of the girl decided to finally come talk to me and she said that when I’m not here everyone is talking about me in positive terms.
We all moved on a football field and we played some, they did everything so I could make a goal and I did make a goal they are all so happy however I didn’t understand.

This is pretty much what I remember of that dream. I think it is related to my changing self-image.
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