I started to write a diary in 1995, I wrote one entry per day, it is very useful for me, this is the way I can observe change, slack off period, fast-progress period, compare what work best ,etc …. Talking to friend made me rediscover a technique I used to get out of shyness in 1996. Until that year I was particularly shy guy especially with the girls, I had a nest of insecurities in me.
During that year I wasn’t particularly in good shape so I enrolled in a fitness program including running, swimming, body building, stretching and breathing exercises , it did great for my health and my energy level , it also had the tiny side effect to boost my self-confidence.

However, one night I had the strange idea to try something new, I was deeply relaxed in my bed and I imagined myself received appreciation and love from all the girl I met during the 6 years of secondary school (high school I think in North America), not one , not two, but all of them, it takes just a couple of second per girl.
As I felt the love from them I eventually convinced myself that I’m truly loved. I also used a couple of affirmations ‘The more I love myself the more I love others’, ‘It is easier and easier for me to love others’.
I did this until I was feeling a strong feeling of love and euphoria in me, I fell asleep.

The next days and weeks were kind of weird, because I was completely changed, I have never changed so fast before, I was feeling strong self-confidence best of all I was completely devoid of any kind of insecurity, self-doubt or fears, for instance, after class, instead of taking bus to go home, I walked on the street if I saw a girl from my College in a car, I would knock the window and I ask her to take me, it worked great, at that point it was irrelevant what people reaction will be to me, I was not caring what people think of me, I was so full of self-confidence and devoid of any shame or guilt feelings. Read More→

Crying during meditation is a relative new phenomena for me, I started to seriously meditate in 1998 and I cried during a meditation for the first time in December 2005. I think that crying during meditation is in direct relation with the release of emotional debris , it seems that the process is controlled by the heart chakra/center. Friends asked if I cry out of pain, no, this is not a painful process, I just have tears and tears that’s it, I don’t feel any negative emotions during that process.

During meditation I observe two things about the heart center, one it uses crying to release emotional debris and second it uses laughing to recharge itself, I remember that sometimes I feel such an euphoria during my meditations and I laugh so much I have to make an added effort to stay focused. Both crying and laughing can occurs during the same session.

This is crying for releasing emotional debris however, there is another type of crying that is painful and also in relation with the heart chakra this one doesn’t occurs during meditation sessions, it occurs whenever you close your heart out of pains, crying because the heart is broken is in fact closing the heart center, a painful process. There are two more types of crying these one have nothing to do with meditation but I mention them to avoid confusion this is crying for getting attention and crying because of physical pain. Read More→