7 months of love meditation

I started to work seriously doing the love meditation seven months ago, many things happened I believe if I don’t write I might forget so this post is a resume of what happened to me during the last 7 months in regard to this love meditation. I first learned about opening or awakening the heart chakra in December 2002 when I read the book Soul Love by Sanaya Roman, I was able to use some of the information in the book back then but the book use a lot of what I consider mysterious language and it was difficult to understand at some point for example the concept of ‘solar light’ is never explained, it is only in recent months that I was able to fully use this book after I read the Klaus Joehle – The messenger.

Klaus’s book talks about the same thing than the Sanaya Roman Soul love book only the language, style and wordings differ completely in a sense Klaus wrote in a more meaningful and engaging way for me. I read his book in July 2006, I decided to give the best I have to the concept he talks about in his book, in August 2006 I started to work with what I call ‘love meditation’ which include sending out love, healing past emotional wounds and forgiveness, I did 4 meditations a day each lasting 1 hours for 4 months and half in mid-November, I restructured my program due to new development.

August – Starting

I started with Klaus Joehle – Opening the flow to love – mp3 meditation, I had not much result the first week, the second week I was able to feel a little bit the energy in my heart center, which is a warm feeling in my chest area and arms at the level of my heart. At the end I started to cry during the meditation not because of sadness, I was just crying I guess due to the awakening of my heart center however it was also the time for me to a travel to Andalucia (Spain) , I had less time for meditation in Spain, I did one hour a day at most hopefully it was a 5 days trip.

When I went back I discovered that It was easier to work with my chakras with certain sound referred as mantras, I successful experimented the love meditation with a variety of mantras such as OM and many others by using sound I was able to direct the flow of energy in various parts of my body and also in different area of my room. Toward the end of august I reached a plateau I couldn’t develop more my ability to feel love or send love, I asked help and I received it , I was intuitively directed to some music from an unknown Italian composer I bought online 4 albums of him, it was a hit for me, listening to his music at the first I could experience the energy of my heart center and in combination with the OM mantra the one I choose to keep from the many I experimented with was a winner combination.

September - Forgiveness

In the beginning of that month, I carefully observed myself and I noticed that some anger of unknown source was slowly emerging, I decided to meditate on it and I discovered it was linked to early childhood traumatic experience, I was able to heal them instantly during my meditation. That month I learned to ask guidance to my higher self or whatever you want to call it, I got many insights, I never shared these insights as they are information that you cannot understand by reading about them, you need direct experience of it. Author and OOBer Robert Allen Monroe had an experience similar to mine he wrote a chapter about it in one of his book however people don’t understand this chapter this is the most bizarre stuffs he wrote well at least if you don’t understand it. I don’t want to polemic so I will not go through this into great detail, just know that the I got two important insights , the first explained me how the heart center or chakra recharge itself, the second was the meaning of I can loosely call ‘Pure Unconditional Love’ which differs completely from romantic love .

October - Nobody does it better, children do get it.

There are two simple rules for my meditation :

It must have an improvement each day
There is no quit

I wasn’t getting any improvement in the beginning of this month of October, however, bizarre stuffs happened , for instance I walked the street and wondered what happened to the people I knew a few years ago and then I would meet not one of them but all of them in various area of the city during my walk, so strange.
More bizarre was the behavior of the children under 5 years old toward me. One day I was in a shop near a mother carrying her baby in her arms the baby wasn’t seeing me and turned quickly his head in my direction and pointed his hand in my direction like he wanted to be in my arms. Another day, I was in a park and I saw a little girl away of me may be 30 meters, at some point I felt that she was aware of me and she ran as fast as she could in my direction she stopped at my level. That too strange to me I said nothing when her mother arrived she started to talk about me to her mother.
One evening it was dark around 7 PM I was walking on a street when I knew that the baby girl in her stroller was aware of me, I deliberately walked slowly when she and her mother arrived at my level, she turned her head in my direction made big smile to me, so we played to smile big during several minutes at some point her mother got irritated and walked faster with the stroller, the baby girl still managed to make sign to me until she was out of sight. Such events aren’t supposed to happen to me I don’t understand the reason, I investigate and asked for help but no one was able to give me a satisfying answer. Like I said earlier I wasn’t getting much improvement in the meditation in October so I decided to buy some device one was called the ZPB and the other the ChionMax , the vendors of these devices claim that their gadget generated a field of subtle energy, true or not ? it worked for me like magic …..

November – Solid Quantum Leap and collapse

November marks the beginning of a new era or stage in my development the device helped me tremendously to get there. The devices gave me added energy which allowed me to go further in my meditation, when I meditated this time my experience was completely different I felt such an euphoria , I had physical pain disappearing instantly, I also experienced a series of dreams that were extremely real , more than the reality itself in these dreams I was an altered version of myself that was way much advanced with that love stuffs. I also had a lot of lucid dreams and spontaneous astral projection. But at some point some part of me rebelled it was clear that if I continued at that rhythm I will be transformed for good. The rebellion was strong and brutal as a result I ended up doing my meditation 1 hour at most.

December – Slow month

December was a month of self reflection and questioning, where do I go ? what I have achieved ? what do I want ? etc…I managed to make 1 hour of love meditation at best.
I had to find to handle these parts of myself that rebel against changes. Fear is the biggest block to human evolution said Robert Monroe , there is certainly true in his statement.

January – The magic coat and the fantastic voyage

From late November to January I had no time to meditate more than one hour (self-sabotage ? ) , I was planning my trip to Republic of Georgia before the night before taking my airplane I managed to meditate two hours.
During the trip to Georgia I had a transit to Vienna, during the two hours of flight to Vienna my chest area became very warm, it was strange I didn’t have any particular emotions during that time. Arrived at Vienna airport I had to wait three hours for my plane to Tbilisi (in Republic of Georgia) , I sat on a bench in the airport for some bizarre reason most of the girls that passed at front of me made big friendly smile, I told myself, Vienna must be some kind of paradise where girls are friendly. When I took the plane Vienna-Tbilisi the feeling in my chest came back even stronger, they showed the us a movie called Hoot , one of the scene show ‘ A young guy running barefoot and being spied by another young guy from a school bus’, this scene made me cry for some unknown reason as I write this to you and I think of it, I have tear in my eyes.

By the time, the plane landed in Tbilisi I had my heart center completely open and radiating and it will remain like this for two weeks with me doing no meditations.
Everything went perfectly during my trip in Tbilisi it was so perfect that at time it sounded surreal. When I was back in Brussels it continued the same as in Georgia , I was approached in the street by strangers and they asked me to take picture of me, it happened also when I was in Georgia. I meditated less when I was back about 1 hour and not everyday the effect I enjoyed the two previous weeks faded away.

February – Healing system

I took a wrong turn in November after I slacked off with my meditations, if I had continued with the rhythm I had in early November I would been completely transformed something that some part of me rejected with fear, I had to find a solution and do something.
I came across EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) and I use that system to remove any blockages. I believe the next months will be very different than these first seven months.

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